A New Year And New Hope

     Hello to all my friends and family. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. Christmas day couldn't have been better, fresh white snow covered the ground, the kids slept in until just after eight, and grandparents stopped by to visit, eat yummy food, and play a little too. Tomorrow starts the New Year, so good bye 2012, and hello 2013.

     Last year started out with so many unanswered questions, I felt so lost in the world of PNE. It seemed no matter which road we went down we found ourselves more confused and frustrated. Nothing made sense and the unanswered questions just grew and grew. Though one thing for sure was, that I was very determined to beat this. I did not want to accept the couple of answers we were getting, and I was not going to give up until the right answer came along. At first, I didn't know how long I'd need to wait, but after a lot of patience and prayers the right answer finally came around in the middle of the summer. I discovered that the surgery I needed was available through a laparoscopic approach, only down side, the surgeon that offered this was located in Turkey. Even though we traveled so far, everything about our decision felt right, and for the first time I felt a sense of relief, and that everything was going to be okay. The end of this year has been filled with hope and a new appreciation of life. What a difference one year can make. I can already tell this new year is going to be filled with lots of accomplishments and hopefully some little miracles too.

     So many things that were taken for granted two years ago, will be given back to me as this new year moves forward. So, with more patience being the key, here are some of the bigger things I hope will happen for me. Sitting through three hours of church, going to the movies again, taking a road trip, making it through a promised, and now overdue Disneyland vacation, and the ability to reconnect with my husband (in a behind closed doors kind of a way). I know, a shocking last remark, and probably TMI, but unfortunately, it's one of the ugly truths of this condition. Of everything lost in dealing with this devastating condition, this is the one I personally struggle with the most.

     So what do you think? Too much to ask of my damaged nerve? I really think with some more healing and regenerating time for the nerve, I am going to have a very memorable year, and in a good way. Everything is slowly turning around, and I truly believe this is going to be a year filled with  new opportunities. I am looking forward to posting these accomplishment, and I hope you all stick around to celebrate my milestones.

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year! To a brighter year, filled with hope, happiness, and good health!